Adjustment

Well, I knew this time was bound to come - Hudson is finally adjusting to his new baby brother. This evening, when we were just settling down to bed, Hudson started crying. This wasn't a cry of pain or even a nightmare cry; this was a sobbing, my feelings are hurt kind of cry. I was crushed because I immediately knew what was wrong. I remember my mom telling me that the way I adjusted to my brother, Derek, was one night when she came to kiss me goodnight before she went to bed (as she did every night, and I do for Hudson each night), she came into my room, and I was crying a sobbing cry. She said that I did this one night and that was it. That was my way of adjusting to my brother joining my family, and it seems that Hudson is handling it the same way as Mommy. As soon as I heard Hudson start crying this evening, I scooped him up and held him in the rocker. He just melted in my arms and quieted down as I hugged him tightly. Daddy also came in to hold him for a few minutes before I selfishly returned to take him back because I absolutely love it when Hudson is completely cuddly like this. I held and rocked him a while longer until he was almost asleep. He whimpered slightly when I layed him down in his crib as if he didn't want me to stop, but then he went right to sleep. I love my sweet boy Hudson, and it tears me apart to see him hurting. However, it brings me joy to know that in a few months he will thoroughly enjoy having his little brother as a playmate and friend. Although I have made an effort to do so since Luke has arrived, tomorrow I plan to give Hudson some extra special attention to show him how much I love him. He has such a sweet and sensitive heart!